try to function better,
i want to become smarter.
i want to flutter out words and awe myself when i open my trap.
Try acid and heroine,
lose myself in something, having no control over nothing, but stay put and
open up even more and read and understand concepts and ideas that i cannot grasp onto early in the morning.
brain, don’t stop,
till the day oxygen doesn’t reach all the way up to you because the gravity is pulling the air down.
be a slave
and work when i’m sleeping.
read latin and greek and nahualt. learn math instead of using fingers to count.
stay away from the tele because it’s been messing with us this whole time.
brain, i want you to take me places, learn languages fluently in a day so that i can meet girls and find a chef wife from every single country in the world so i can always eat out without having to go out.
brain, i’m tired of not understanding.
i want to learn why colors are the way they are and if the world is actually white and our eyes are the only things that see color, understand how plants grow, because i’m tired of killing them,
brain, just make me smart, help me generate more ideas to prevent the poor from being so poor and get a metal bar and smash it on the powerful bullshitters.
help me understand why people die, what happens after we die, brain let me die for a couple seconds then return.
i beg you,
just open up a little bit more,
i just want to know.
RIP Mark. This piece was really, really beautiful. You were really beautiful.
I reblogged this post without realizing that Mark is actually a person I know (not personally) from school. I would see him everywhere, on the train, at school, by my friends house. Everywhere. I always admired his outfits and dreamed about wearing black lipstick as good as he did. Being the creeper that I am, I had fantasies about one day gather all my courage and talk to this beautiful individual. I didn’t want to believe that this was true. It breaks my heart. My deepest condolences goes out to those who had the courage to be a part of his life and interact with him daily.